Dig Up Her Bones

CRUCIAL DUDES

2009-08-16T17:55:52Z

Purchases that need to be made:

-more family inspired tattoos

geri-four leaf clover with banner

-lip service acid washed jeans

-booksss
-naked lunch(burroughs)
-great shark hunt(hunter s)
-lexicon devil
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Lately I've been really considering living outside the city in a small cottage like house.
I don't know who would live with me out there, but it definitely seems like a nice, relaxing change from the hustle and bustle of city life.

The real estate cost is also extremely favorable.

I guess we'll see what happens.

this is the place

2009-01-15T10:07:35Z

It's funny how music can really fuck with you. Lou Reed's Berlin album, is making me feel all sorts of things right now. Mostly in my chest. Strange memories of drug abuse. 7 o clock in the morning, strung out on meth flavored ecstacy,acid, snorting dexedrine and what I believed to be cocaine. Feeling so beautiful for some reason. I look back on it and I miss that feeling. I don't feel as beautiful as I did then. I am not insecure about my looks, I am content enough with the person that I am on the outside. It is the beauty of the feeling... like my insides were wrapped up in a warm blanket that hugged me all throughout the night.
I will never change if I keep going back to that shit, but I don't want to face the world like this. I feel way too brave when I'm this sober. I'm so scared right now... of what could happen, what has happened, what is certain to happen again.
I don't want to get hurt..... I don't want to keep hurting them.
I want to be forgiven.
I want you to get over it,
so that I can move on from what I did to you.

inarticulating @ 2009-01-10T17:51:00

2009-01-10T23:53:51Z

FUCK EVERYBODY
I don't love ANYONE right now

I FUCKING HATE YOU ALL

FUCK UFFCK FUKC KFUDKCKUKDFUKCUFKCUKCKCUFKUCKFUCK

adslghdjlghdafhggaaaaarhgggggggggg

Keep your opinions to yourself
Grow the fuck up
SHUT THE FUCK UP FOR ONE FUCKING SECOND
Treat me with respect! Somebody, ANYBODY
I FUCKING DARE YOU
Treat others how you would be treated
FUCK DOUBLE STANDARDS
FUCK POLITICAL CORRECTNESS
FUCK FUCK FUCK
AHHH

inarticulating @ 2009-01-02T03:22:00

2009-01-02T09:28:30Z

I was restless
I was restless
I was restless cause I want this to be perfect

SHAME

2008-12-18T22:23:15Z

I can't keep doing this. I hate scheduling for a bunch of people who have all sorts of ridiculous requests. Is it not apparent to you that all this shit that you spring on me last minute is unprofessional. I do not want to deal with this any more. I am burned the fuck out. I am fucking tired and sore and maybe a little hungover.
I had a full blown panic attack the other night in the midst of my drunkenness. Maybe a little over the top, a lot of shaking and puking and crying. I don't know when I've ever been that scared. Fuck physical contact I only pretend to enjoy it. Truly it scares the shit out of me. Get off of me. Get away from me. Leave me alone.....
but please don't.

Thank god I have a friend who would hold my head over a garbage can. I am ashamed and awkward and truly uncomfortable.
The whispers, the rumors, the feelings of people talking,thinking, pointing, knowing things I've never told them. I don't like it.

Enough to make me shoot it up and never look back. Die in a cross. On a cross. Over a barrel.

inarticulating @ 2008-10-14T23:48:00

2008-10-15T04:52:51Z

I am ridiculously self centered.

I know what you're thinking ' not you, Laura"

No, really.

survey

2008-09-08T08:18:33Z

1. No question

2. last beverage:
whiskey sour @ earls

3. last phone call:
Mayo

4. last text message:
Jill to schedule mai hurrr cut

5. last CD played:
Tha Carter 3

6. last BUBBLE bath:
A few months ago

7. last time you cried ?
A while ago. I'm pretty pent up lately.

8. last meal:
Chicken caesar salad

SEVEN "HAVE YOU'S":

1. have you ever dated someone twice?:
HAHAHA umm more like 20847398564386 times

2. have you ever been cheated on?:
why? what do you know?

3. have you ever kissed someone & regreted it?
I don't like kissing.

4. have you ever fallen in love?
with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love withhhhh

5. have you ever lost someone?:
my mom in KMART like 15 years ago. SUCKED!

6.have you ever slept until 2pm?:
daily ritual my friend

7. have you ever been drunk and threw up?
yes

SIX things you did in the past three days

1. Drank soda
2.Smoked a pack of cigarettes
3. Painted my new bedroom wall
4. Had a shower
5. Watched television
6. Bruised my elbow bone

list some people you can tell pretty much anything to --
Brittany & Mom.
list THREE favorite colors ---
red, kelly green, yellow

list THREE things you want to do before you die -
can i do 4?...i have 4
get published, fall in love, see the world,kick your candy ass

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU...

Laughed until you cried:
yep

Went behind your parents back:
no

Found out who your true friends were:
I already knew

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT:

1. Your last kiss? bad, very bad

2. Gay Marriage?: whatever

3. Lowering the drinking age? Why not

5. Who are the best huggers that you know?
WTF. I'm not answering this.

6. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Val Kilmer sup sup
7. Is there something you want to tell someone?
yes
i think you're a bitch and i'm glad you moved away

8. What brand of shirt are you wearing?
some gray walmart hoodie

9. What is your current annoyance?
my door is a piece of shit and doesn't close

10.How many kids do you want to have?
shit like 30

11. Do you wanna change your name?
yes. Agatha Weatherby

12. Last time you saw your father?
1988

13. What did you do for your last birthday?
realised that everyone sucks

14.What time did you wake up today?
11:30 am

15. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Watching Nim's Isand

16. Name something you CANNOT wait to do?
die...SERIOUS

17. What is your favorite thing in your room?
red lamp

18. Where is your best friend right now?
at work

Cease and Resist

2008-09-04T20:27:26Z

One day you wake up and realise that everything you have no idea what you believe in anymore.
One day you put on your favorite record and turn it off after 3 songs.
One day you hear the cynics say
What are we even fighting for?
And all that you say
is
I
Don't
Know

Closure

2008-08-25T01:24:44Z

I forgive those who trespass against me.

Shifting Waves

2008-08-21T06:31:15Z

I missed you SOOOOO much today
WAY too much
Shit dude

Brittanica and I are moving promptly
I start creative writing classes mid september
HOLLA!
Might be going on a trip soon
STOKED!

Neutral Territory

2008-07-05T18:11:51Z

It's funny how we judge people up until we get to know them.
You should never judge a book by it's cover, but it's kind of hard not to.
Instinctively we go with what we know.
Looking back, a lot of people that I thought were so cool years ago, are so fucking lame now.
As I'm geting older I start to wonder if anybody is looking up to me.
If they are, I feel terrible. Once they really know me, they'll be quite disapointed. I'm pretty low-key.
In short, I'm aging. Faster than I should. Contemplating, Analyzing, Maturing. All that fun stuff.

I really want to go to Bonaroo Festival. Look it up because it looks/sounds AMAZING!!!!!!
2009 I'm all up in that shit.

Ps: Lately I'm actually getting tired of being an atagonist. I want to just be chill. Neutral.

Also; I'm not a drug addict, but I am flattered that you would think that. Guess I'm just a skinny bitch.

<3

inarticulating @ 2008-06-25T09:53:00

2008-06-25T16:00:57Z

You know what rules? Hot weather. Weather that makes you want to do something with your life. Weather that makes you want to hop your fat ass onto a bicycle just for the hell of it. Weather that makes you think that EVEN though you're the most drunk you have ever been in your entire life, that your apartment at the END of gertrude isn't really that far from the albert and you should totally just walk there at 2am.

You know what else rules. Grape soda, boys who are kinda cute...straight up white trash, but cute, leopard stretch pants, getting my drunk on, listening to new records, smiling, laughing, sun, shorts, new tattoos, pirate swords,dead swallows,kissing on the neck, walking everywhere, like y'know whatever.

I think I'm gonna go to Makeup school..actually actually actually.

i wish i lived in pensacola florida.
it's nice there.

lalalalalalala
i'm in a pretty good mood today and i don't really know why.

OVER THE TOP

2008-03-17T01:27:33Z

So I'm pretty bummed that my trip is so short and all, but on the sunny side of the street I am in Florida eating chips and watching HBO.
Take that life!

Love Bites

2007-10-19T18:28:09Z

"Promises"

Ah loving you is easy you are on my side
We play the game strictly to our rules
We led the field a love affair
Which made all other lovers fools

Oh
How can you ever let me down
How can you ever let me down
How can you ever let me down
These promises are made for us

We promised that we'd always have time for each other
Whenever I needed you'd be there
We promised to be true there'd be no other
We promised that for ever we would care

Oh
How can you ever let me down
How can you ever let me down
How can you ever let me down
These promises are made for us

We had to change
But you stayed the same
You wouldn't change
Oh what a shame

Cos loving you's not easy you're not on my side
We play a game with two sets of rules
We lead the field in a love affair
Ah strictly meant for fools

Oh
Why did you ever let me down
Why did you ever let me down
Why did you ever let me down
Those promises were made for us

You never have any time for me
Whenever I need you you're not there
You've never been true and it's plain to see
The fact is you never really cared

Oh
Why did you ever let me down
Why did you ever let me down
Why did you ever let me down
Those promises we made for us

Update

2007-10-01T03:32:02Z

The worst part of my month HANDS DOWN was seeing Cannibal Corpse. I got to see The Red Chord, which were AMAZING as always but other that that the night was a total bust. For some reason sweaty obese men and gutgrinding vocals sandwiched in between lackluster melody doesn't quite butter my toast. I'm weird like that.

In a nutshell this is my life;

I work a lot
Metalheads still suck
Venom still sucks
Straightedge still sucks
Punk is dead
Your family is still crazy
People still suck
God bless the brewers of Starbucks Coffee for keeping my caffeine levels at glorious heights and my mental stability intact
Happy Thanksgiving
I love you all,
Laura Geraldine Rewucki

FUCK THE SMITH AGENCY LTD

2007-06-23T17:02:14Z

Smith Agency has been dicking me around for the past 2 weeks since I sent in my apartment application. I have lived in 3 different apartment blocks in my whole life and not once did I ever have this problem. I should've listened to my mother when she warned me about them, but instead I chose to ignore the negative and turn up the positive. Well FUCK THEM! I'm looking other places as of Monday, unfortuantely it's prettty close to July.1st, but god damn it I wasn't expecting this to fall through. FUCK! Seriously, I'm excited to get all my shit together but this just isn't cool.

Never Know

2007-06-14T06:06:03Z

I hear this old story before
Where the people keep appealing for the metaphors
Don't leave much up to the imagination,
So I, wanna give this imagery back
But I know it just ain't so easy like that
So, I turn the page and read the story again
And again and again
It sure seems the same, with a different name
We're breaking and rebuilding
And we're growing
Always guessing

Never knowing
Shocking but we're nothing
We're just moments
We're Clever but we're clueless
We're just human
Amusing but confusing
Were trying but where is this all leading
Never Know

It all happened so much faster
Than you could say disaster
Wanna take a time lapse
And look at it backwards
From the last one
And maybe thats just the answer
That we're after
But after all
We're just a bubble in a boiling pot
Just one breath in a chain of thought
The moments just combusting
Feel certain but we'll never never know
Just seems the same
Give it a different name
We're beggin and we're needing
And we're trying and we're breathing

Never knowing
Shocking but we're nothing
We're just moments
We're Clever but we're clueless
We're just human
Amusing but confusing
Helping, we're building
And we're growing
Never Know

Knock knock on the door to door
Tell ya that the metaphor is better than yours
And you can either sink or swim
Things are looking pretty grim
If you dont believe in what this one feeding
Its got no feeling
So I read it again
And again and again
Just seems the same
Too many different names
Our hearts are strong our hands are weak
We'll always be competing never knowing

Never knowing
Shocking but we're nothing
We're just moments
We're Clever but we're clueless
We're just human
Amusing but confusing
But the truth is
All we got is questions
We'll Never Know
Never Know
Never Know

I HATE COLDPLAY

2007-06-06T23:20:17Z

SO I've decided to stop stressing out over dumb shit. It appears to be a good idea seeing as I have felt much better since I decided to put that in play. My parents are stil not divorced which is obviously disapointing, but on the plus side since I'm single, i'm gonna be a huge slut and fuck all of your brothers.

Just kidding.

ANYWAYS, I'm not a big fat emotional homo and i don't really feel bad about shit that went down. I hate having feelings anyways.
I feel damn solid about my life choices so suck my balls if you don't like it.

I'm selling my car and moving out ASAP.

Life is going my way whether it likes it or not.

inarticulating @ 2007-05-21T20:35:00

2007-05-22T02:36:11Z

SERIOUSLY FUCK

inarticulating @ 2007-05-03T01:33:00

2007-05-03T07:34:36Z

FUCK YOU NICOTINE!

Brother

2007-03-30T17:30:15Z

Fourteen years have passed since that day

Your stories are the same,

But the ends have all changed.

You carried on like you were some type of god

Some things will never change.

We went home to see our folks

We laughed and we told jokes

It was like we were young again

On that deathbed, our mother lay

How long shes got, they still cant say

It took all this to get us back together again

How long is this going to last?

You cant keep reliving your past

Screwing over the ones that you love

In the name of some new drugs.

So brother, raise another pint

Rev up the engine and drive off in the night

See you somewhere, someplace, sometime.

I know theres better brothers,

But youre the only one thats mine

The bondsman came to my door early the next day

He said I come for your brother;

you dont know what kind of trouble that hes in

How long is this going to last?

You cant keep reliving your past

Johnny Law keeps a poundin at my door

Cause you screwed up some new score

So hes standing in the doorway like he owns the place

With a look of smug satisfaction on his face

Im gonna give you up of that

Hes sure as hell, but I take one look at him

And I know Ill never tell

They can knock all of my doors down,

But I wont say a word.

So Rich, So Pretty

2007-03-20T18:54:50Z

I like a girl with caked up make up in the sunshine smoking cigarettes to pass the time
who wakes up to a bottle of wine on the nightstand bites and scratches the blinds
but I aint found one quite right yet so I step with pep to the park or supermarket
her apartment best be messy and Lisa dont mind when I call her Leslie
shes got to dress with class in Jean Paul Gautier and a Hermes bag and
four inch tips made of ostrich
~~sharp enough to slit your wrists~~ her lips spread gossip
wont say sorry when she offends she comes over to my place in her old mans benz
and gold and silver and jewels of all colors and she doesnt take them off when were tearing up the covers
come on and get it before I change my mind come on kid dont waste my time
so rich so pretty the best piece of ass in the whole damn city so rich so pretty
~~I like a girl who eats and brings it up a sassy little frassy with bulimia~~
her best friends a plastic surgeon and when her bmr's in the shop she rolls the benz
manis and pedis on Sundays and Wednesdays money from mommy
lovely in Versace costly sprees its on at barneys and I love to watch her go through fifty gs calmly
she gets naughty with her pilates body and thinks its really funny when her nose goes bloody
because the blow is so yummy and it keeps her tummy empty and makes her act more friendly
dance the night away and she wont say nothing when she makes your man stray

honesty

2007-03-18T18:35:09Z

AND THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE

AHEM!

2007-03-09T03:36:51Z

As all of you motherfuckers know,

MY BIRTHDAY IS THIS FREAKIN SATURDAY.

Be there or be square.

You're a dumbslut if you aint there, and I aint lyin.

Letzzzzz getttt CRUNKKKKKKKKKKKKKDDDD

choke a bitch

2007-02-19T00:04:07Z

i'm fuckin tired of everybody being so lame

- i'm trying to get sober, slowly but surely

i've cut out the drugs, i'm working on the drinking because i'm a total prick when i'm drunk. you probably haven't seen me drunk, there's a reason for that.I think it's a solid step in improving my general health. Just so we're clear though, I continue to swear and smoke like a sailor lost at sea and eat Taco bell like it's going out of business.

-i hate a lot of different things; girls, my pseudo psycho parents, throbbing chest pain, having to make food, throbbing chest pain, ex boys, those weird girls on myspace who think they're socialites because they live in the newschool suburbs. IT's WINNIPEG! You are not rich, you're just from Manitoba oh AND people who don't belong at the Albert being at the ALbert.
These things are ruining my life today.